Looking for a 12 step....

So I am currently looking for a 12 step program to help me with my latest addiction. I blame my best friend, Tiffanie. It is all her fault. It all started over a lunch email at work:

T: Heading out to get the boy a toddler bed
Me: How much fun, from where?
T: Oh it's one of my free thingys...
Me: (sniff sniff).... what?....(sniff).... what do you mean free thingys?.....
T: YOU KNOW...I just know I have told you about it... it is this internetthingy where rather than donate your stuff you don't want you post it online in a group and the ground rules are it has to be free....

Somewhere around here I stopped reading.... FREE.... FREE, PEOPLE.

It is called Freecycle.org and they are global. They are online communitties that are run locally in neighborhoods. The rules may vary from group to group, but the bottom line is, you offer what you don't want for free, it must be usable, it must be appropriate for all ages, you are responsible for your own safety. People offer from clothes, to toys, to dish washers, to camping equipment, to whatever....There are 4 titles: OFFER, WANT, TAKEN, RECEIVED.

It is so freaking cool!!

To date I have received some gorgeous gold sheers, 2 outdoor chaise lounges and a coffee table/end table set.....for freaking free..... it's like ebay for the poor. The offer goes out and you pray your email hits their in box first so you can win the prize.

Freecycle.org

Go.....and I'm sorry... addicts never like to be alone......

I am woman hear me roar.....

I am covered in paint and recovering from a state recertification survey...this is the best I can do people.....

You are Strength

Courage, strength, fortitude. Power not arrested in the act of judgement, but passing on to further action, sometimes obstinacy.

This is a card of courage and energy. It represents both the Lion's hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others she shuts it. Either way, she proves that inner strength is more powerful than raw physical strength. That forces can be controlled and used to score a victory is very close to the message of the Chariot, which might be why, in some decks, it is Justice that is card 8 instead of Strength. With strength you can control not only the situation, but yourself. It is a card about anger and impulse management, about creative answers, leadership and maintaining one's personal honor. It can also stand for a steadfast friend.

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You say it's your birthday?

.... it's my birthday, too, yeah!

Where shall we start...

It's not the GREAT FLOOD....but definitely flooding is a theme in my life right now. I am going to use these symbols of flood as a sign of the destruction of the old, the water representing my need to be fluid and flexible with change, and then nourishing to the new.....

Have you thrown up from all the BS yet?

SO... a few weeks ago we had a torrential downpour come through our town. 5:30 AM, big thunder, big lightening, big rain! Mike left to the new house before me and the boys, and I get a phone call.... get dressed and bring the camera....NOW. I walk into puddles in my new living room. Great... we barely own the house 3 weeks and I have my 1st insurance claim. Brilliant.

I am choosing to see this as a blessing. We had just ripped out the tile floor, but we had not put down the new laminate. This will however delay the moving in process slightly, since now we are going to have to fix the problem.

Today - I get the kids to school and see that the windows are all wide open, and there are lots of trucks everywhere and no lights on inside. Great..... I am greeted at the door by the owner who proceeds to tell me that a hot water heater burst sometime over the weekend, flooding the entire school and bascially destroying everything 2 feet and down..... it is a daycare...everything is 2 feet and down. My heart just broke for them. You could tell they were devastated. They were able to move all the kids across the street for the day, but then they were going to have to move all the kids around to other daycares.

Once again, this is a big picture moment for me. I am very attached to this daycare... I love them and they have loved my children since they were born. But it is not close to where we live now. We really should move them to someplace closer to our new home. I was hoping to wait until Big Red got into kindergarten. I was avoiding it. I don't like change. But it makes no sense for my children to move to another daycare (even further away) for an unknown amount of time, go back to the old daycare, then move again later. So today I went looking for another school.... and to no fault of their own, none of them are as good as MY school just because of the simple fact that it is not MY school.

Oh... change.... my dear sweet annoying friend, Change. You and I are gonna have to figure out a way to get a long. You are obviously not going anywhere (or are you always going somewhere?)..... so I am just going to have to find a place for you in my life....just as soon as everything dries out......