Friday, May 20, 2005

How ya like them apples?

So I gotta say, I am a little disappointed in the Trumpmeister...

I did not watch the Apprentice...
I do not care who won, (but was glad to see that it was a woman)...

But can someone tell me why the choice for the previous male apprentices included massive 90-story building projects and multi-site business and residential buldings in Chicago and New York City, and the ladies got to choose between baby-sitting a beauty pageant or re-decorating one of his ocean side homes??!?!

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

WHAT THE HELL?!?!

i miss you...
i am not sure where the hell i have been...

I think I have posted a dozen blogs in my head driving to and from work or as I lay in my bed at night. I have this overwhleming need to write the details of my father's journey down yet I can't seem to go there. We are quickly approaching the one year mark and I feel like if I don't document it by then, it will all go away or get hazy in my mind... and then I think... there is no way. The thoughts and images are burned here forever. But what if they aren't? Quite frankly,I don't want the vivid images and dreams anymore...but dear God, please don't ever let them go away. I am swinging so far back and forth on this pendulum that I am getting dizzy... and it is getting tighter and tighter and faster and faster to the point that I am standing still because I don't want to go to extremes.
I am not going to go here all the time... but I am warning those of you who still come around I will be visiting often... and if you are tired of hearing about my father's death, go take a flying leap and take me off of your blogroll.

ON THE BRIGHTER BI-POLAR SIDE OF LIFE...

I am going to visit little Jimmy the firt part of June!
Kenneth comes home for a visit next week!
Max made a "nest" with 2 little eggs in it and carries it around with him where ever he goes. He is so sweet and gentle with them that I almost think they are going to hatch at some point and I will have 2 little blue birds flying around my house.
Ben's smile is getting bigger and brighter every day. He started rice cereal. I don't think he realizes that he is eating it, he just enjoys he uninterrupted time to stare at each other. The only reason he opens his mouth is because I open my mouth.. a weird mommy mirror thing that we all do...
I am done...I will be back soon... I promise... really, I do!

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Jimmy

Welcome to the world, sweet Jimmy!
My best friend from high school gave birth to her 1st born son today! It ripped my heart out that she was in VA and I am here in TX...she called me on the way there, shortly after her epidural and right after he was born. I have never wanted to jump through a phone more in my life. I could hear him crying in the background and I was so filled with joy I could just burst! She called me again tonight when she was feeding him for the first time, and ironically I was feeding Ben...two moms serving up the mama moo juice to our precious sons... how far we have come from high school! I could feel the bond and the electricity of the moment through the phone.
Thank you for letting me share in those precious moments, even if I was just a voice on the phone...
God Bless you,my friend... and your husband... and your precious baby boy!